The beginning of my bariatric program starts tomorrow with the first appointment in a long list of to do's- My Weight Loss Surgery Overview Class. I can't wait. Since the class is tomorrow I thought I would write my "I can't wait to.." list. You know that list, the one where you list all of the things you can't wait to do or try or experience after your weight loss. Here's mine!
I can't wait to be able to lay my arms down my side and have my arms naturally touch the hips. At this moment in time they stick out in this awkward V shape.
I can't wait to be a size 6! I know I hope to eventually even be smaller than a 6 but a size 6 is the size I was when I was 18. It was the fittest time of my life and also the time when I was most confident about myself. I was 169 lb and happy! If I can get to that point again I know it's going to be a huge step.
I can't wait to wear tall boots. I LOVE tall boots. I think they are adorable and are so classy, especially with a pencil skirt or a really good pair of jeans. I have humongous calves and zero boots fit me. I can't wait to fit into tall boots. It's the dream.
I can't wait to go shopping and FIT into the normal sizes. I don't care what size I end up being. Small or medium would be amazing. I just want to be able to shop in the normal department. Not the Plus size or the women department. I just want to be able to see a cute coat, try it on and buy it.
I can't wait to fly on a plane. I haven't been on a plane since I was 18. I don't have a fear of flying. I have a fear of fitting into the seat. I'm sure I would fit but I would hate to encroach on anyone sitting next to me. My biggest fear is sitting in the plane and being told that I need to purchase another plane seat. I would be absolutely horrified. To avoid potential embarrassment, I haven't been on a plane since I was 18. I can't wait to fly and travel.
I can't wait to sit comfortably at a baseball game. My family are big fans of the San Francisco Giants and we try to go to a few games a year. The only problem with going to the games is that the seats are so tight to fit into. I always feel bad because I usually sit in between my Brother and Fiance and I just feel terrible when I feel like I am squishing both of there spaces. I can't wait to fit easily into them and feel comfortable.
I can't wait to buy pretty lingerie. My bra size is currently a 42G in Soma Bras. I can't wait to wear cute bras and cute undies again. I hate the bras I have to wear now. They have the huge straps and they are not cute what so ever.
I can't wait to have one chin. I know, how silly does that sound. I HATE my double chin. I can't take a good picture anymore. I am so self conscious about it. Some pictures I have three chins. Seriously.
I can't wait to look my age . When you are overweight, your face starts to fill out. Normally my thinner self, I have a heart shaped face. It's very slender and I have a pointy chin, haha. Since my weight gain I've lost all of my facial features. My face is pudgy and round. You would never know that I have a naturally pointy chin. My weight has aged me. I do look quite a bit older than I actually am. I just want to look my age.
I can't wait to feel normal. I know this might sound weird to you but I hate the way I feel. I know surgery won't be an instant fix and there will be a lot of work for the rest of my life but I just want wait to feel a normal size. I feel big. I feel w i d e . I am always the largest person in the group. I want my fiance to be able to put him arm around me all the way. I want to be able to be part of the group, not the largest one in the picture. I am I just want to feel the thinner me. I can't wait!!
love and thinner thoughts,
Anna
I can't wait to be able to lay my arms down my side and have my arms naturally touch the hips. At this moment in time they stick out in this awkward V shape.
I can't wait to be a size 6! I know I hope to eventually even be smaller than a 6 but a size 6 is the size I was when I was 18. It was the fittest time of my life and also the time when I was most confident about myself. I was 169 lb and happy! If I can get to that point again I know it's going to be a huge step.
I can't wait to wear tall boots. I LOVE tall boots. I think they are adorable and are so classy, especially with a pencil skirt or a really good pair of jeans. I have humongous calves and zero boots fit me. I can't wait to fit into tall boots. It's the dream.
I can't wait to go shopping and FIT into the normal sizes. I don't care what size I end up being. Small or medium would be amazing. I just want to be able to shop in the normal department. Not the Plus size or the women department. I just want to be able to see a cute coat, try it on and buy it.
I can't wait to fly on a plane. I haven't been on a plane since I was 18. I don't have a fear of flying. I have a fear of fitting into the seat. I'm sure I would fit but I would hate to encroach on anyone sitting next to me. My biggest fear is sitting in the plane and being told that I need to purchase another plane seat. I would be absolutely horrified. To avoid potential embarrassment, I haven't been on a plane since I was 18. I can't wait to fly and travel.
I can't wait to sit comfortably at a baseball game. My family are big fans of the San Francisco Giants and we try to go to a few games a year. The only problem with going to the games is that the seats are so tight to fit into. I always feel bad because I usually sit in between my Brother and Fiance and I just feel terrible when I feel like I am squishing both of there spaces. I can't wait to fit easily into them and feel comfortable.
I can't wait to buy pretty lingerie. My bra size is currently a 42G in Soma Bras. I can't wait to wear cute bras and cute undies again. I hate the bras I have to wear now. They have the huge straps and they are not cute what so ever.
I can't wait to have one chin. I know, how silly does that sound. I HATE my double chin. I can't take a good picture anymore. I am so self conscious about it. Some pictures I have three chins. Seriously.
I can't wait to look my age . When you are overweight, your face starts to fill out. Normally my thinner self, I have a heart shaped face. It's very slender and I have a pointy chin, haha. Since my weight gain I've lost all of my facial features. My face is pudgy and round. You would never know that I have a naturally pointy chin. My weight has aged me. I do look quite a bit older than I actually am. I just want to look my age.
I can't wait to feel normal. I know this might sound weird to you but I hate the way I feel. I know surgery won't be an instant fix and there will be a lot of work for the rest of my life but I just want wait to feel a normal size. I feel big. I feel w i d e . I am always the largest person in the group. I want my fiance to be able to put him arm around me all the way. I want to be able to be part of the group, not the largest one in the picture. I am I just want to feel the thinner me. I can't wait!!
love and thinner thoughts,
Anna